Learning about the hidden meaning of Purim this year is showing me a deeper way to understand my experience on Shabbos.
It's all about my soul, the levels or layers in the life of my soul that I may not understand, and it's exciting. I love knowing there's more going on inside me, a bigger picture, a greater awareness I have yet to explore.
I especially love knowing I am connected to deeper parts of myself, and at the same time I am connected to Hashem.
In a little ebook published by Bilvavi.net, titled Purim Wine, I am drawn deeper into more understanding of Purim and more understanding of myself:
"If we reflect into what we said before, we can see that Purim is totally different than all other auspicious times of the year. We will not get into now what each Yom Tov reveals for us; but what we will say is something general, that each Yom Tov serves to reveal a special power of our soul. Purim is not like any other Yom Tov; Purim reveals the very root of our soul, a point that is way above our conscious state."
Purim is not mentioned in Torah because the historic events it commemorates happened long after Torah was given to the Israelites. And the Book of Esther read on Purim was the last book included in the twenty-four books of Tanach established by The Great Assembly.
Honestly, the Purim story told in the Book of Esther and the customs associated with the holiday of Purim can be very confusing because they don't make sense.
What makes sense to me is this - I am connected to parts of myself that are deeper and possibly darker than I want to believe. And at the same time I am connected to the incomprehensible perfection of the Creator of the Universe.
That is something I choose to explore more than once a year on Purim.
Once again (from Bilvavi.net) "Purim reveals the very root of our soul..." which is something I long to explore every week on Shabbos, too, when my soul is connected, "... way above our conscious state."